Don't even look at me!

Okay, so I am in the midst of a very important scene in Stolen Child.  I have managed to spread answers (in what I think is a nice manner) to questions my readers might have throughout the book and now I am tying up a few other loose ends before closing in on the last major battle!  ((Woot Woot!))  And in the midst of this, my fiance decides he is going to come in and say hi and bother the living tar out of me.  I feel completely awful because I am such a horrible person about it!  When I am writing once I have gotten to the "zone" it is ever so deep down but ever so easy to lose if distracted.  He knows this.  I have asked him very nicely to not even look at me when I am in the zone but he comes in and wanders around for "things to do" near me and I know he wants to come say hi and get a hug and kiss but I am WRITING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Now I have lost my thought train.

Honestly, he is the sweetest most loving man I could ever hope for and I love him very much.  But how many of you other writers turn into wild beasts when you are interrupted from your writing?  Or do you hide from the world?  Maybe I will poll this.  I like those little polls.  I may open the Wesley Crusher one up permanently...just for kicks.  Anyway, let me know what you do when people derail your thought train while you are writing.  If you don't see an answer you like on the poll, feel free to comment!  (You can do that anytime, actually.  I just moderate what goes onto my page for anything that might be super nasty or full of really horrid swear words.  Although on that note, I may do a post on swearing at some point.  In that case, we'll have to be really nasty.  :) )

With that said and done, I am going to take a few moments to honor my beloved and oh-so-innocent fiance.  He is kind, caring, generous (to a fault) and positively snuggly.  One of my favourite things about him is that he comes running when I say "scratch my back!" in desperation to itch an itch I cannot reach.  I love him ever so much and would not trade him for anything.  So I love you my lovey fiance!  Woot woot!!

Death...Death is coming...Death is here...

Anyone watch the IT Crowd?  If not, please do.  Such a great show.

Anyway, I just realized something.  You know all those times when you find yourself watching/reading something and the author kills off the most jovial, life-filled character?  The one who is more than just comedic relief?  That awesome character who is so innocent, so alive, so incredibly wonderful and suddenly and most tragically, DEAD?  You know how you hate them for it? (At least hate them in a good way or something.)  I'm killing off three.  I have three characters like that (three separate stories) and I am killing them.  I am seriously so angry with myself but at the same time the other part of me (which is somehow evil, I guess?) is cheering me on and saying "you couldn't have written that better!"

Now honestly, I remember when I got to the fifth Harry Potter book.  I cried.  I threw the book.  Yes that right.  I threw it!  That book deserves abuse.  I mean, who kills off Sirius Black?  He is positively the BEST character in the series and all you give him is this lame death that serves no other purpose than to give Harry more angst?!  Because we all know that Harry Potter needed more angst.  I mean I am all for killing off characters and pissing my reader off in a good way (in that they are attached to said character and feel so strongly about their death) but come on, lady!  I can't even bring myself to open any of the other books now.  It's been years since that dumb book came out too!  (I cheated.  I read them on Wikipedia and was told by a friend.)  Then only to have Gary Oldman (one of the greatest actors of all time) play him in the movies.  Who kills off Gary Oldman?  (I suppose plenty of people because I haven't seen all of his films, but still.)  Gary Oldman is awesome as it is.  Transform him into Sirius Black and you have double the awesomeness.  You killed it Ms. Rowling!  You killed the awesomeness!  **Insert sobbing here!**

In all seriousness though, I hope I have somebody ranting about at least one of these characters deaths the way I rant about Sirius Black.  I truly hope that my characters can inspire such a love in my readers.  Is that not something all writers strive for?  If not strive, then at least secretly hope?  Please mourn the loss of my character tonight whose name I shall not mention so I don't spoil the whole thing.  If you know who I am referring to because you have either just read it, or you are somehow inside my head you may say a few words if you like.  But join with me now, in a moment of silence. 

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Very nice.  Thank you.  *Wipes tears.*  That was good.  Good wake, everybody. 

Tsukino-san

So I am sitting at home, watching the live action Sailor Moon.  I love this show so much.  Every time I watch Sailor Moon I remember just how much I love this!  Japanese people are so pretty.  Men and women alike.  I wish I was that skinny too so that I could dress like them.  Have you ever flipped through a Japanese fashion magazine?  Such great clothes! 

So I have a horrible habit.  When I write, I listen to music.  I know what you're thinking...that doesn't sound like such a bad habit.  BUT IT IS!  I have developed the need to have the perfect song playing while I write.  So I spend much of my time searching for the song that fits what I want to write.  It is actually pretty stupid when you think about it...and it gets worse.  Because I so desire just the perfect song, I often buy new music just to write to it!  I'm spending way too much money on this!  WTH?!  I have got to break this habit!  I have tried working on it and am getting a little better. 

So why don't I just listen to Pandora or something you might ask.  I don't trust Pandora to give me the right inspiration.  I mean, it is fine for listening to at work and that is how I have discovered a lot of my new music.  However, Pandora seems to think I need to like operatic rock.  I LOATHE this kind of music anymore.  It used to be that I would listen to Nightwish and Evanescence, but they're now overdone and pretty crappy.  But I won't rant on operatic rock right now.  I've already done that on Facebook. 

As for other things, I am wanting to write too many stories at once.  What do I do with this?  I mean, I realize that I can jump around, but then I never finish anything.  Ugh.  What to do.

Also, I hate the CAPS LOCK button!!!

Love is the way

Oh Eli.  How it saddens me and keeps me from watching any more episodes of Xena to know that you are going to die.  I don't give a rats hind end if you are going to be a martyr for a good cause.  The world needs you!

Does anyone else think that editing sucks?  I know I need to fix my stories.  Hell, I need to finish my stories.  I need a "poof" button.

So who else has ever picked a single song and listened to it over and over and over again.  What was it?  Why this song?  Why over and over?  And how crazy were you at that point in time?

For me there are too many to name.  But one song that I frequently repeat is the first track on the Kingdom of Heaven soundtrack which, HOW COINCIDENTAL, is the song I am listening to right now.  I am listening to it because it makes me think of my Book of Seas.  This song is the cause of much inspiration for that story.  Over and over, because I like doing that to songs.  How crazy am I at this point in time?  Well, crazy as underpants! 

Another repeat song: My Boobs Are Okay by Lene Alexandra.  The title alone should send you to you tube to hear it and then you will understand.  Or maybe you wont.  Either way, I'm not getting into it.

Views on the edge.

So I'm stuck on my writing.  I have so many wonderful suggestions from people on Authonomy, but at the same time, I am a little overwhelmed.  Holy buckets of so much to do, Batman!  How many of you feel this way?  Do you every get that little lazy feeling like "I want to better my writing.  I want to follow these suggestions.  At the same time, like so much else in my life, I want to be able to go "poof!" and have it be done. 

Well, the vote is in.  The work I move on to once I am finished with Stolen Child shall be Book of Seas!  Woot! Woot! I do like that story.  This will mean a lot more research on the Byzantine empire.  So if anyone has any good readings on this, suggest them please!!  We shall see what comes of this!

As for Stolen Child, I am in the process of struggling.  I am nearing some very important events that up until now had seemed they should be separated.  I realized that in my original storyline I thrice wrote in an event that could be summed up into one.  I managed to work two of them in and make it okay, but I am thinking that the coming events might not work as well as I originally planned.  What to do?  Well.  I think I shall write it and see what comes of it.

In other news...Titus Pullo brought down the Republic!  Caesar may now elevate himself to tyrant!

To do or not to do...the old age question...

So you know how there are those things you really want to do?  Those things that are oh so fun...and oh so time-wasting?  Yep.  I'm doing those tonight.  I should be job hunting, because as of July 1, I'm officially screwed.  However, I am procrastinating and wondering what to write.  I know I would like to finish Stolen Child.  I know plenty others who would like to just frakking finish Stolen Child already.  On the other hand, I could watch another episode of Xena on my trusty-dusty Netflix.  I also see that it is 9:13.  So...close...to...bedtime!  Well, at any rate, this old hag needs a good back massage, more applesauce, and a broom to pound the ceiling with.  (WOOT WOOT!  Mr. Heckles!)

What do you do in your old age?

On other subjects, I have been brainstorming ideas with Book of Seas, which seems to be the one desired to be put out next.  Does everything really have to have a point?  I'm thinking some things should.  Not like a moral or anything, but a point.  Something big that is behind it all.  Perhaps I will discover it as I go along?  So this leads me to my next question...when you write, those of you that do, does your story have a point or do you develop said point along the way?  I don't care what the point is...for all I care it can be so your Mary-Sue can outshine everyone on the enterprise and shag Picard.  (Because we all know that the entire point of a Mary-Sue is to shag the author's favourite character and she will shag them at some point...though I'm not sure that Wesley Crusher ever got any.  Does anybody know the answer to that?)

Well, I'm off to the muse.  She's pounding on my head and asking where the hell the phone charger is.  Adieu all!  (*whispers in scary Sokka voice* For now!)

Blisters and bubblegum.

So how many of you walk/run/tredmill/etc?  How many of you do this in spurts and pretend you do it all of the time?  HA!  Okay, that aside, I am on the hunt for a new job.  Ugh.  I have a job at Old Navy part time and will be trying to get as many hours as possible from them but I need something else.  I NEED TO PAY BILLS!! 

So I had to do one of those blasted survey things.  I hate those.  Wow.  I was so distracted by this that I didn't realize I need to get my bum into bed.  Ugh.  Well, more when I am not distracted.